Good Morning Universe I bet I
got your attention with my title today.
Honestly who doesn’t want a cookie (or 10) now and then. Before now I would have DEFINITELY just ate
all the cookies. Self-Control hasn’t
always been one of my strong points, but that is changing these days.
I have spoken before about my
addiction to negative behaviors like smoking, drugs, and even self-harm. Another addiction I have struggled with, and
still struggle with is an addiction to food.
I partook in these negative behaviors to escape. I was usually bored or depressed and made
excuses as to why these negative behaviors were OK.
It is very difficult to change
behaviors that have been part of your life and your personality for years, but
it’s DEFINITELY POSSIBLE. The best part
about changing your negative behaviors and habits is the pride you get upon
success. The hardest part is getting
back on track if you fail. Failure is
common when making significant changes, but I BELIEVE the only TRUE FAILURE is
never trying again. The things people
value most are things we have WORKED FOR.
That being said, I REALLY WANT
COOKIES. I am aware that the OLD SELF
wouldn’t be able to just have one serving of cookies, I would be in danger of
eating half the box. My NEW SELF has
been doing really good this week. I
bought a small box of cookies 5 days ago, and still have more than half the
package left today (and it’s actually a really small package) YEAH!!! I am starting to gain some self-control, and
with that comes PRIDE.
Last
year I still had the goal to be healthier, I just got lazy. This year has not been about maintaining my
weight loss, but getting it moving again, and I am happy to report THIS YEAR is
going GREAT. Two years ago I weighed
316lbs, as of today I have gotten down to 213lbs.
Now
my job in the coming months is to remember this POSITIVE feeling in order to
keep me motivated. It is my job to keep
working even when I hit the DREADED PLATEAU, which I acknowledge will come. I must take my thoughts captive, thoughts
like “this is too hard” or “well I worked so hard and don’t’ see changes.” I must remember how good it feels to succeed,
even when my inner quitter is SCREAMING at me.
One step I have taken is to
tell others my goals, that way I will be accountable. Another way is to share my struggles and
successes with a support system. Now I
have shared my goals with ALL of YOU and it SCARES ME but it also inspires
me. Let’s all work to overcome our FEARS
this year and look for the POSITIVE.
To The Universe
LOVE BRANDY
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