"Tough times never last, but
tough people do." Robert H.
Schuller
This
quote is so short in length, but it’s genius is enormous. It calls to mind the tough times I have
experienced in my life like depression, low self-esteem, and drugs just to name
a few. Especially cool about this retrospection
is that tomorrow is my Birthday, and don’t we all look back on our lives when
we are about to be a year older.
I would
describe my past as tough, though I am not blaming my mistakes on my “tough”
past. I wouldn’t say that I used to
describe life as fair. In fact, I spent a
lot of my time looking at other people’s lives and how I thought they had it “easy”.
By
focusing all my attention on other people’s “easy” lives, or at least how I saw
other’s lives, I didn’t have to look at my own.
It wasn’t that I was ashamed of everything I did, but I didn’t have the
strength to make the changes I wanted. I
wanted life to change for me, not for me to change for life.
If
something good happened I didn’t rejoice, I usually thought it was an anomaly. If something bad happened or I was going
through a tough time, I thought I was being punished unfairly. I never truly stopped to think that I could
grow from the tough times, I just felt self-pity.
Today it’s
easier to look at my past mistakes and the tough situations I have gone through
without blame, guilt, and pity. I am not
perfect. At times blame, guilt, and pity
still sneak into my thoughts. Though
today I know I can take those thoughts captive and work on changing them into
positivity and love. It takes work to
change inside and out, but it’s worth it.
I am
tougher then I knew I was, but am tender as well. It’s a balance between being tough and being
tender that I feel will benefit me most. It’s a balancing act that I KNOW I can
do. Who knows, I heard “balancing” on a
tightrope can be exciting. Life is my
circus and I’m ready for it.
To The Universe
Love Brandy
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