Decisions aren’t always supposed
to be easy. Many times in my life I have
found myself questioning if I am making the right decision. Decisions which will bring me the happiness
and security I desire. I know I am not
alone in questioning my decisions. The
difficulty comes with trying to stick to the choices I have made, or fall
backwards into what I KNOW and what is easier.
Last year I moved to a new city
and for a long time I was Really Missing my friends and family. My hometown is where I fought through my
addictions, my apathy, and my sadness. My
hometown is where I grew up, where my most of my family and friends live, where
I KNOW I will always have a place, and where I have re-invented myself before.
I made the decision to stay in
my new city quite a while ago, and I really feel at home here. Originally I had to force myself to believe
that once I had made the decision to stay my doubts would dissipate. I can honestly say that the doubts I had last
year have mostly disappeared, and I am So Grateful and Happy.
Today I realize that doubt is
natural. Doubt is The Universe testing
me. My doubt doesn’t mean I made the
wrong choice, it means the Universe wants to be sure that I am Completely
Committed to moving forward on my path.
When negative emotions and
thoughts like doubt enter my mind I must work hard to control the negativity in
my heart and mind. This kind of control
over my negative thoughts takes work.
The work that is required will be rewarded. I know that everything worth having will take
work and I am ready to put in the effort.
As much as I wish serious change
was always easy, I know that when I come out the other side the trials and
difficult choices I have been faced with makes my joy even sweeter. My goal is to stay on the path that The
Universe guides me down. I must
constantly evaluate my choices and what influences them in order to allow
myself an abundance of Happiness, Love, and Security.
To The Universe
Love Brandy
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