Sometimes people are waiting for “the big moment” or epiphany to start a change. One day you can wake up and realize that things are different, your life is different, YOU ARE DIFFERENT. Often times change can be so gradual you can’t pinpoint it.
I have been trying to pinpoint when I started truly feeling happy, and not just believing happiness would be mine. I can’t remember a specific day, week, or even month when I was sure that my happiness was more than just belief.
The first step to change is desire, then belief, then action, and perseverance. All of a sudden you look back and realize not only is your life different, BUT YOU ARE DIFFERENT. It works both ways, with positive changes and negative changes.
I have had experience with the “positive changes” and the “negative changes.” When I became addicted to drugs, I didn’t just WAKE UP like that. It was gradual, I knew I was taking chances using drugs but I told myself I was stronger and smarter than that. I was wrong.
When I quit using drugs I didn’t just wake up and everything was great because I was sober. My road to sobriety and ultimately to happiness was long and difficult. When I was using drugs, I didn’t want to be an addict. I was afraid, I was ashamed, I was unhappy, I felt unworthy and unloved….That is a lot of negativity to face sober.
Today I am SO VERY BLESSED. My life isn’t perfect and I’m not always happy and chipper, but I feel different deep down inside. I don’t dwell in the bad stuff. Negativity, Anxiety, and Fear come to visit me sometimes, but I DON’T LET THEM STICK AROUND.
To The Universe
Love Brandy
Love Brandy
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