Doubt is Natural

Friday August 24, 2012

               Decisions are not easy, many times I find myself questioning if I am making the right choices that will bring me the happiness and security I desire.  I know I am not alone in questioning my decisions.  The difficulty comes with trying to stick to the choices I have made, or fall backwards into what I KNOW and what is easier.

               I have recently moved to a new city and lately I am missing my friends and family.  My hometown is where I fought through my addictions, my apathy, and my sadness.  Though my hometown is where I grew up, where I KNOW I will always have a place, and where I have re-invented myself before.

               I have already made the decision to stay in my new city, though I find myself with doubt.  I had previously thought that once I had made the decision to stay that my doubt would dissipate.  Though I still find doubt in my mind. 

Today I realize that doubt is natural.  Doubt is The Universe testing me.  My doubt doesn’t mean I made the wrong choice, it means the Universe wants to be sure that I am Completely Commited to moving forward on my path.

               When negative emotions and thoughts like doubt enter my mind I must work hard to control the negative in my heart and mind.  This kind of control over my negative thoughts takes work.  The work that is required will be rewarded.  I know that everything worth having will take work and I am ready to put in the effort.

               As much as I wish serious change was always easy, I know that when I come out the other side the trials and difficult choices I have been faced with will make the happiness even sweeter.  My goal is to stay on the path that The Universe guides me on.  I must constantly evaluate my choices and what influences them in order to allow the Universe to guide me.