I have kept a lot of things to myself recently,
that I really should have been sharing.
What happens when I keep everything to myself isn’t pretty. I get sad, mad, angry, and unable to
communicate efficiently. I have spent a
large portion of my life pretending. I
pretend I’m the happy one, I pretend I’m not bothered, I pretend I don’t want
emotional support.
Pretending has brought me nothing but more
distress. I have been so worried how
other people may react to my emotional needs, and so afraid of negative words
and rejection, I have become a “slave” to my emotions. I have let my emotions take control of my
happiness. I am So Done with that.
I have been trying to load all my blogs into a
different format, and with photos, for the past couple days. I have reformatted them so they all look
alike, and this morning when I was determined to upload ALL my blogs, my internet
is not cooperating. I’m upset, I’m
frustrated, and I kinda feel like giving up.
But there’s a lot of power in admitting ALL your emotions, even the bad.
Once I admitted how frustrated I am with my
computer, the internet, and trying to learn new programs, I was able to step
back and say “STOP.” Stop working on
what your doing, NOW, before your frustration makes you completely useless and
ruins your entire day.
Now, that I gave myself permission to “STOP”, my
frustration and emotions are calming. I
don’t feel like I am losing control, I feel calm, and happy. I have to allow myself these moments of
negativity, if I deny that I feel these things I will NEVER learn how to
control them. I must embrace ALL my
emotions, my emotions Are Me, and I am Happy with Me.
To The Universe
Love Brandy
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