"Tough times never last, but
tough people do." Robert H.
Schuller
This quote is so short in
length, but it’s genius is enormous. It
calls to mind the tough times I have experienced in my life like depression,
low self-esteem, and drugs just to name a few.
I would describe my past as
tough, though I am not blaming my mistakes on my “tough” past. I wouldn’t say that I used to describe life
as fair. In fact, I spent a lot of my
time looking at other people’s lives and how I thought they had it “easy”.
By focusing all my attention on
other people’s “easy” lives, or at least how I saw other’s lives, I didn’t have
to look at my own. It wasn’t that I was
ashamed of everything I did, but I didn’t have the strength to make the changes
I wanted. I wanted life to change for
me, not for me to change for life.
If something good happened I
didn’t rejoice, I usually thought it was an anomaly. If something bad happened or I was going
through a tough time, I thought I was being punished unfairly. I never truly stopped to think that I could
grow from the tough times, I just felt self-pity.
Today it’s easier to look at my
past mistakes and the tough situations I have gone through without blame,
guilt, and pity. I am not perfect. At times blame, guilt, and pity still sneak
into my thoughts. Though today I know I
can take those thoughts captive and work on changing them into positivity and
love. It takes work to change inside and
out, but it’s worth it.
I am tougher then I knew I was,
but am tender as well. It’s a balance
between being tough and being tender that I feel will benefit me most. It’s a balancing act that I KNOW I can
do. Who knows, I heard “balancing” on a
tightrope can be exciting. Life is my
circus and I’m ready for it.
To The Universe
Love Brandy
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